“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind so that you may prove what is that good and perfect and acceptable will of God.” - Romans 12:2
It is amazing how I look back to my life a year ago and compare it to now. At the time I never realized that God was slowly, but surely working in my life. I was simply just going through life.I have always been a Christian and had faith, but I never truly relied on God. I went to church an hour on Sunday, and I can promise you that was the only time I prayed, that or if I wanted something. My problem was that I was scared. Just like in other parts of my life, I was scared to commit myself into a relationship. I was stubborn and hard headed, and if something needed to be done then I could do it best on my own, I didn't need to rely on others. Relying on others means that you are giving other people the opportunity to enter into your world and possibly hurt you right? I felt the same when it came to my faith. I was satisfied with just being average. If I didn't have the strongest relationship with God, then he wouldn't be as disappointed if I made a wrong choice. If I didn't rely on him to help me, then I wouldn't be as disappointed or mad when it didn't happen. My life was good; I worked super hard, I went to school full time, hung out with my family, went on random dates. It was my way, I made things happen on my own; just how I liked it.
But I was longing something and I knew it. I was graduating in May. That meant no more school, no more working at a bar. It meant the real world was coming. All of this thinking that "I can do it on my own" stuff wasn't reality. As much as I thought I was, I wasn't superwoman. I had no idea what I wanted to do for a career and I definitely didn't want to get stuck working at a bar my whole life. I was also longing to feel real love for somebody. I was 21 and had never once experienced an ounce of love towards somebody. If I wanted to make something of myself then I knew who I needed to turn to. I decided to make a New Years resolution to start reading the bible. That was the first turning point in my life. I began with the New Testament and it amazed me how I could relate my life to something that was written 2,000 years ago.....isn't that amazing?? Every thing i was reading had me intrigued. To this day, James is still my favorite chapter. I started paying attention to the readings at mass and really listening to the homily. I finally started praying again at night and thanking God for every opportunity that he has given me. The moment I said, but most importantly, truly believed, "God, I can't do this on my own. I am not going to force things, I need you and am giving my life up to you." My life turned around in the best way possible. A month later God blessed me with the love of my life, I quit my job, graduated school, and gave me the inspiration to start blogging. God is capable of anything. Even if your life is going good already, give it up to God and watch it be even better.
The point of this is that whether you are at your lowest low or highest high, you need God in your life! Open up your bible, and it can change your world. Your relationship with God shouldn't be one sided. Everyone knows that a relationship is successful when it works both ways. God needs you just like you need him. The best advice I was given was that God should be your best friend. Would you want a best friend who only comes to you when you want or need something? Or would you want a best friend who you can rely on and share your heart with, one that is with you every step of the way?
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